Heart-string Kites

My past still tuggs on me

like kites tied to my heart-strings.

Often they go unnoticed

but occasionally there's a gust.

I'm no puppet,

the tugging can't make me dance.

And yet, I don't have the power

to cut the strings.

 

Sometimes I think I want to,

and forgetting seems the best course.

But those who forget history repeat it,

and I'd rather occasional reminders,

than living through the pain again.

Dark Limerick

Across a bridge the lady did stroll,

and so a demon demanded the toll.

She offered her gold,

all his coffers could hold.

But devil, he wanted her soul.

I want to shut him up.

He isn't even talking to me

and I have this urge

to shout him down

to change the topic.

Then I realize,

I felt the same way last time

someone was talking like that

and that time I did shut it down.

I feel ashamed.

I stopped people from exploring the philosophical concepts of determinism and free-will simply because it made me uncomfortable.

Hypothetical constructs should not be fearful.

People who refuse to grow and learn are frightened by the hypothetical...

that is why I am ashamed.

I couldn't handle the idea

that I have no choice in anything

and that everything

I do,

I say,

I am,

was predetermined from the moment time started.

I shut down the conversation with the point that it didn't matter

which was true

because it didn't affect day to day life

or the apparent choices we make

so it wasn't worth discussion.

And so,

a moment of weakness

caused by staring into the abyss of nihilistic philosophy,

now creates a blush of shame

Good Thing We Didn't Have Grass This Year eh?

I saw the plow tracks and the damage done, 

a little strip torn off of every lawn, 

ooh-oh the damage done again.

Week's end will be time.
Edging down, bulbs in, seeds sown.
Fingers crossed; no weeds.

Premembering

Do you ever start at a new job

or go to a new restaurant

some place you've never been

and when you meet some people

for the first time

you just kinda know?

Somehow you know

that you're in the right place

and they belong in your life.

I'm not talking about love-at-first-sight

this has nothing to do with attraction

or love.

It's a connection to strangers

an unexplained familiarity with them

and you just know you'll be near these people

for years to come.

You know like you're remembering

and echo of your future.