Heart-string Kites

My past still tuggs on me

like kites tied to my heart-strings.

Often they go unnoticed

but occasionally there's a gust.

I'm no puppet,

the tugging can't make me dance.

And yet, I don't have the power

to cut the strings.

 

Sometimes I think I want to,

and forgetting seems the best course.

But those who forget history repeat it,

and I'd rather occasional reminders,

than living through the pain again.

A Bit Un-tamed... even for wildflowers

So I stopped by the old garden to see how the flowers were doing. The nasturtiums are doing well and I saw some clover in there but there is a ridiculous amount of grass in the bottom left area to the point that I'm wondering if they planted it.

Workouts and weekends

So this week has been a complete bust on the workout plan. Turns out I'm much weaker than I had thought.

The first day of the month was a Tuesday so according to the plan, that means 15 min bodyweight training. I did a few push-ups, a few sit-ups, some planking and when I just couldn't handle more without knowing I'd hurt myself... I looked at the timer to find only 5 min had gone by. Holy crud I'm out of shape. The next day I felt like I had bruised a rib somehow and I really wasn't in the mood for 45 min of vigorous dancing. Thursday I was dejected and headache-y. Friday... well Friday I just couldn't be bothered.

This week I took a Saturday shift for someone who wanted it off so Megan and I moved our date-night to Saturday night instead of Friday night. Then I found out that an old friend is in town (well, a few towns over) so we were going to hang out Sunday. Unfortunately his van broke down so he can't get here.

Now I'm sipping some hibiscus and rose-hip tea while I figure out what the new plan for today is. It's tasty hot with honey, but also awesome after it's cooled mixed 1/2 and 1/2 with lemonade. Another busy week but overall I'm happy.

Habits and Goal Tracking

I seem to consistantly forget that when the bus is on Holiday schedule,  it doesn't come by my house early enough for me to take it to work. This wouldn't be a problem if I remembered because it's only a 40 min walk, but since the bus usually picks me up 35 min before work, by the time I remember/figure out why the bus hasn't arrived... I'm 5-10 min late for work.

I'm going to stop this habit by setting a separate alarm the next time I know I'm working a holiday so I get warned to walk in enough time to actually do it.

I'm going to cultivate some other habits with the Habitbull app. It'll help me keep track of daily stuff like drinking enough water, how often I walk to and from work, as well as my new exercise and eating programs.

Life is simple to track when the answers to your questions are yes or no. (E.g. "did I walk to work today" is a much simpler question than "how many calories did I burn")